Not for keeps


Like sand dripping through my fingers
I feel you leaving me, slipping through my clasp.
Holding on, is futile and senseless
The harder I grasp, the more I lose my grip.

You were not meant for my hands,
Nor were my hands made for you.
In my arms you do not belong,
A lonely stranger at my side.

Your smile is etched on the canvass of my memory
Your face carved in my heart of stone.
Your voice echoes in the valleys of my hollow heart
Your spirit flows through my tired veins.

Like sand fleeing my clenched fists
Like fading echoes in my heart
Like a bucking spirit through my veins
Your home lies over the horizon, beyond my reach.

As you go, I’m left with nothing
but your foot prints in my mind.
My orphaned heart will forever keep
The dreams we’ve shared for which we weep.


Heaven weeps

The weather outside is gloomy, it is as if the sky is weeping. Weeping for whom? For the people who lay lifeless after the blast in Congress? For the families who were robbed of their loved ones? For the wounded who are lying fighting in hospital beds fighting for their lives? For the maimed who are struggling to make sense of their fate asking for what they have lost their limbs for?

For whom is heaven weeping? For those who despite of all these remain tucked in bed in deep slumber? For those who choose to turn their backs as if nothing happened? For those who struggle but find themselves pushing against the wall or fighting windmills?

May the rain wash away our passivity… may it water the dying humanity within each one of us, drowned by so much blood that this nation has spilled. May the rains cleanse our ailing spirits, nourish our thirsty hearts.

An Appeal: A Sidebar Picture for the Sumilao Farmers

Last October 10, 2007, fifty-three (53) farmers began a trek, a journey on foot that will take them from Sumilao in Bukidnon to Manila. They have been walking for a month now. This afternoon they were leaving Matnog in Sorsogon and their next stop will be in Irosin. They are doing this journey ON FOOT (except for the boat ferries that will take them from one island to the next), from Sumilao to Manila they will cover an estimated 1,700 kms in around two months. They are expected to arrive here in Manila on December 5.
Why would they take the pains of leaving their families, their livelihood and walk such a great distance? If they were made to answer this question I am sure they will say – for a piece of land that we can build our lives on and those of our children and justice that has long eluded them.

Their story would have been simple had it not been for the crooks in government. In fact, the 144-hectare piece of land was already transferred to them by virtue of the government’s agrarian reform program a decade ago during the Ramos Administration. The land that would have been distributed to them was owned by the family of Norberto Quisumbing, a rich and landed family. However, they were not even told that the title of the land was already issued by the Department of Agrarian Reform in their name. They were deceived. They only knew of the fact that they already owned that land when they received a notice from the court that the title issued to them was subject to a petition for cancellation. The Quisumbings have belatedly filed a petition to convert the land from being classified as agricultural to industrial. This would mean that the land would be exempted from agrarian reform. The DAR denied the petition and then Bukidnon Gov. Fortich wrote a letter to the President appealing the decision of the DAR. Then Executive Secretary Ruben Torres granted the appeal without even the Quisumbings filing the petition and only on the strength of the Governor’s letter.

In the face of this injustice, the Mapalad farmers went on hunger strike in front of the DAR in Quezon City. The story of the injustice committed against them and their hunger strike made the headlines. Support for their cause poured in and pressure on then President Ramos mounted. It took 28 days of utter hunger of the Mapalad farmers for Ramos to finally heed their cause and decide on the issue. Some of the hunger strikers were on the brink of death for they took nothing bu water for almost a month. Ramos decided to play safe, he made a compromise – 100 hectares for the Sumilao farmers, 44 hectares will be retained and converted by the Quisumbings. The hunger strike was lifted and they returned to their homes waiting for the distribution of the land.

But their sufferings did not end there. The Quisumbings filed a petition in the Supreme Court for the nullification of the Ramos compromise. After several months of continued advocacy, the Supreme Court handed down its decision, the petition was granted and the Ramos formula was nullified. The Supreme Court in their decision decided against the Sumilao farmers on the basis of a mere technicality – the Department of Agrarian Reform did not appeal on time the decision of the Office of the President to grant the petition for land conversion. They turned a blind eye on the law that prohibits the conversion of irrigated and prime agricultural lands to industrial use. In the end, justice was not blind – it leaned in favor of the rich and became adamant about the rules against the poor farmers.
Seven long years have passed, the industrial complex that the Quisumbings and Fortich said will be constructed in the land remains nothing but a plan. No development of the land was undertaken. In fact, in 2002, in a very clear manifestation of their abandonment of the plan for which the land was converted for, they sold the land to San Miguel Foods , Inc. SMFI plans to put up a piggery in the land. Since when has hog-raising been considered an industrial undertaking?

The Mapalad farmers petitioned the DAR to cancel the conversion order because the order was clearly violated. The law says that in areas that were converted from agricultural to industrial, if no development has been undertaken within a period of 5 years, the land will be reverted back to agricultural classification. Unable to get any action from the DAR, they petitioned the Office of the President. In a decision dated Oct. 3, 2007, the Office of the President dismissed their petition “for lack of legal standing by the petitioners-appellants.”

So now, the Mapalad farmers in whose name the title of the land was once issued, were not only stripped of their claim over the land but were even stripped of any legal standing on the issue.

AND SO THEY WALK…. from Bukidnon to Manila, the farmers will walk – to claim what is rightly theirs, to reclaim what was unjustly taken from them, to demand for Justice. They are walking for a piece of land, a chance at life.

Nine years ago, I was an active part of their struggle. I ate with them, slept in the tents, shared their joys and victories, shared their hopes and dreams, wept over their defeats. I still am part of their struggle despite the years, the distance.

For all of my blog friends, please share in their struggle by posting this picture below that has been a symbol of the Mapalad farmers’ journey on your sidebar. May that picture be our expression of support, their beacon of hope. Maraming Salamat.


Moo, the gallant cow

Sobrang natouched ako sa tag na ito. Ito pa yata ang unang tag na nakita kong muntik akong lumuha. Kung hindi ko lang alam na ito ay isang work of love (in the making) ay baka naglulupasay na ako sa lupa. Dahil mahal ko tong si Maru at ang kanyang not-so-secret lover at di ko talaga mahindian ito sa marekoy kong nakablue curlers na si Jojie ay papayag akong maging kasangkapan sa pagkalat ng meme na ito.

Di ko alam bakit BAKA (cow) ang simbolo ng kanilang pag-iibigan. Nahihiya akong itanong baka naman kasi sabihin pang chismoso ako at intriguero (charing) pero ngayon naintindihan ko na ang misteryo (somehow).

Click nyo na lang ang bakang ito para magkaroon kayo ng preview ng pagmamahalan ng dalawang nilalang na malapit sa aking puso.




Ayan di ba winner? Alam nyo ba ang love song nilang dalawa? Di ako sure pero sa palagay ko pagkatapos kong makita ito – If I Could Reach You ang love song nila. Tingin nyo?

Ngayon gusto kong itag ang isang pinaka-malambing, sweet at napakamalalahaning babae na nakilala ko sa pagblo-blog, si Mommy Kengkay. Kengks para ito kina Def at Maru… alam mo na di mo mahihindian ito.


dont tag me back, tag mo lang sa next in line sayo, and tell your downline to get 3 members to join the pyramid scheme tag just 1 person in his/her blogroll (which excludes the blogger already excluded in the list)… hopefully, whoever’s name is included in the list by dec 25 will get something from me… so make this tag go around..


1. defpotec –

2. moo –

3. jojie –

4. selvo –

5. kengkay –


(please dont ask me to count for you.. add numbers if required)


Halloween at Undas

I was reading Kengkay’s blog this morning. I was inspired by her kwento of the very cultural aspect of undas. Pareho lang ba ang Halloween at Undas? Ang Halloween ba ay celebration lang mayayaman ng All Soul’s Day samantalang ang Undas ba ay ang poor man’s version nito? Alam kong hindi, naalala ko pa sa aking history na ang Undas ay isang Kristyanong practice samantalang ang Halloween traces its roots to a Celtic celebration that precedes even the birth of Christianity. Nagkataong halos sabay lang sila sine-celebrate and in one way or the other the two celebrations soon merged. Being a partial historian and an incomplete sociologist (kulang ako ng isang semester sa double major kong history and sociology hehehe), nagpasya akong magbasa ng history ng Halloween at Undas.


The celebration of Halloween originated from the Celtic people (hindi po ito sa Boston at wala pong kinalaman si Larry Bird) who lived in what is the present day Ireland (ang kinaroroonan ni Pareng Kiko Matsing at kanyang pamilya), United Kingdom and some parts of present day France some 2,000 years ago. Actually this is their version of the New Year’s Day Celebration (November 1) which marks the end of summer and the beginning of winter. This period, the Celts believed, blurs the division between the world of the living and that of the dead. On the evening of October 31, they believed that the spirits of the dead return to the land of the living. They call this celebration Samhain and they believed that this mingling of the living and the spirits of the dead makes its easier for their priests (called the Druids) to make predictions of the future. Sa celebration na ito nagsimula ang practice ng pagsusuot ng mga costumes that is still being practiced by our kids kapag nagtrick or treat.


When the Romans conquered the Celtic territory sometime in 43 AD, the Samhain festival was merged with 2 Roman Festivals – the Feralia (which is the celebration of the passing of the dead) and the day honoring Pomona (Goddess of fruits and trees). By the 800’s, with the domination of Christianity over the Roman Empire which still occupied the Celtic territories, Pope Boniface IV declared November 1 as the All Saint’s Day – which was also knonw as All Hallows Day. It was only in the year 1000 AD that November 2 was declared All Saints Day.


Ayan base sa aking pagsasaliksik, All Saints/Souls Day is a Christianized festival that has 2 origins – the Samhain of te Celtic people and the Feralia of the Romans. ths is a perfect example of the blending of cultures and religious practices. Ang Undas naman ay ang Filipinized version of All Saints/Souls Day na minana natin sa mga Espanyol at hinaluan na rin ng animist practices ng mga ninuno ng mga Pinoys.


Happy Halloween sa lahat!

Seven, Pito at Siyete

Medyo nagulat ako nung tinag ako ni Iya (ang pang SEVENteen ng pangalan sa blogroll ko). Marami na akong nakitang mga posts about the 7 na tag akala ko madali lang. Susme! nung makita ko ang post ni Iya ito pala yung mahirap na variety ng 7 na tag. Seven things about me that is related to the number 7.


Nagdalawang-isip ako ng 3 beses at kalahati (7 isip hehehe) kung kaya ko ba ito at pinag-isipan ko nang mabuti. Kaya eto ang resulta:

  1. 2007 is my 7th year in Manila. I moved from Cagayan de Oro City (where I grew up) to Quezon City in July 2001 so last July marked my 6th year living here and I am into my 7th year.
  2. In 1977, my family made a big move from Zamboanga City to Cagayan de Oro to look for greener pastures and to move away from the war that was intensifying then.
  3. My son Adee was born on 07-17-97, the month date and year all have7s. While Andre (my first born so) was born on 10-25-1992 – 2+5= 7 and 9-2=7. Andre passed away on 12-10-1992 (12+10+1992 = 2014; 2+0+1+4=7).
  4. I was born on 6-5-68, these numbers add up to 79; 7+9=16, 1+6=7
  5. I was running 25 when I became a father; 2+5=7
  6. I had my first girlfriend when I was 18; 8-1=7
  7. Of the 7 deadly sins, I am usually accused indulging with the 7th – LUST.

There you go. thanks to you Iya, you made me search my memories. And I now invite the following to examine their lives and search for the number 7:

Nika, JeanGrey, Kath, BlueP, Mee, Foobarph and Chuckie.

My ABCD’s (Tagged by Ann)

I was tagged by my favorite Mommy-to-be Ann the Pasawife and so here’s my ABCD’s

Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random habits/facts about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

Seven facts about me: activist, smoker, non-drinker, clown, a father, a college drop-out and a socialist.

A – Age: 39
B – Band Listening To Right Now: Queen
C – Career: full-time activist
D – Drink or Smoke: Doesn’t drink just smoke
E – Easiest Friends To Talk To: Miney, Taroogs, Maru, Jojie, Kengkay, Kath, Annie
G – Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: ano ito? Worms 😀
H – Have a Boy
friend: no Boyfriend, GF meron
I – In love:
very much
J- Junk Food You Like: Chippy
K – Kids: 10 year old boy
L – Longest Ride Ever: Davao-North Cotabato-Pagadian-Ipil-Pagadian-Cagayan de Oro-Butuan-Davao (5 days)
N – Names For Your Future Kids: Andre/Andrea

O – One Wish You Have Now: a personal laptop
P – Phobias: fear of heights (takot sa matangkad)
Q – Favorite Quote: Walang tunay na Demokrasya kung walang Sosyalismo, Walang tunay na Sosyalismo kung walang Demokrasya
R – Reasons To Smile: if Gloria slips and falls flat on her face and the First Gentleman came tumbling after
S – Sleeping Time: 12am
T – Time You Woke Up: 6:00am
U – Unknown Fact About You: meron kaso pag sinabi ko di na sya unknown
V – Vegetable You Hate: wala naman

W – Worst Habit: chain smoking
X – X-rays You’ve Had: chest
Y – Yummy Foods: lechon, sashimi, liempo, pork chop, bulalo at marami pang iba basta may taba
Z – Zodiac Sign: Gemini

Now I’m tagging:

Antuken, Didee, Jayme, Jeckass, Laarni, Pao and Defpotec aka Swami